1. I'm ridiculously indecisive. Actually, it runs in my family. I started becoming aware of how indecisive I am when last Christmas, my cousin, Kevin, would drive us around San Francisco and ask us where we'd want to go, but we'd all be so indecisive that we'd all say, "Oh, Idk, I don't really care." and he would get so upset because we didn't have a set plan, HAHA. So, if you ever ask me a question with choices, you won't really get an answer.
2. I like going to FilAm Seventh-Day Adventist Church. Despite all of the "semi-drama" I see all of these family qualities, and I'm excited to become apart of it. Ever since I started attending the church, I never became so excited to get ready for sabbath school, go to church early, and plan to stay for the entire day.
3. I'm having a hard time writing this became I'm so indecisive. Shoot, 15 years, and I have to choose 13 more experiences, facts, habits, or goals about myself? That's really broad and vague! :(
4. I thought that my intentions were good with my parents, but they're not. I did it for a reason, but the relationship between my parents and I just went back to the way it was. But it's harder for me to lie to them. I want this relationship to be fixed, but it feels like I'm more attached to church than them, and my parents get upset about how much time I like hanging out at church.
5. I always seem to obtain some serious separation anxiety from Chamber and Wind Ensemble kids after tour. It's like between the four days and three nights of bonding and winning, that we become so close in a short amount of time. Then when we come back to school, we spend even more time recovering together because we're all so tired and share tons of inside jokes and talk about what happened on tour. It makes me excited for the five days and four nights for this Anaheim tour :D
6. I try to stay open minded and get to know people before I judge them. Even now with FilAm youth there's a lot of underlying controversy with people, but at the end of the day we're all a family. I haven't seen it yet, but when I do, I'm sure I'll believe it. Also at school when I meet someone new.
7. I like to be optimistic and positive. Even sometimes when I feel down, I try to be as positive as I can. If someone doesn't like me, I'm not gonna force them to like me, but I'll still respect them.
8. I give myself a manicure once a week. I've done leopard print (my specialty!), stripes, diagonals, french tip, and marbling. Lately I haven't had the time to do anything as eccentric as before, but my nails are dark maroon/cranberryish. I want more colors. I have a wish list of colors. :( LOL. But it'll bust a hole in your wallet (;
9. My relationship with God has grown, but I still have a long way to go. I've become more faithful, but not faithful enough to realize all the time that He throws all of these trials and challenges at me to become stronger.
10. My body doesn't allow me to sleep in as long as it used to. Before, I would be able to easily sleep in past 10am, but when given the change to sleep in, I sleep in until about 7-8am. But it changes, depending on what time I go to sleep. As a matter of fact, I'm sleepy right now.
11. I don't want to give into pressure. I feel like since I'm new, I'm being pressured to become more involved in everything with the quickness. I mean it's cool that I'm being accepted and invited and stuff, but a lot of the times I become so overwhelmed with the offers and the thought of getting someones hopes up when the fact is that my parents won't allow me to. It's not that I'm not down to become involved, but I don't want to let someone down because of the amount of commitment that I'm allowed to have. D;
12. Even though it's church, I feel like I can only REALLY trust a select amount of people with my "secrets".
13. I'm self-conscious and slightly shallow. Some say I can sing, and I've been invited to sing for the song service at church. I can only sing melody, I don't know how to harmonize. I wish I could though. It'd be sick. I'm also very aware of what I wear and what everyone around me wears. I feel like your outward appearance is sort of like a first impression and how you present yourself without using words from your mouth.
14. I HAVE DREAMS WHEN I SLEEP NOW! I used to not dream about anything before.. :\ Maybe it's a sign, maybe it's not. But many of the dreams I've been having lately aren't very significant. Are they supposed to be? O____o
15. I wonder about the saying, "if you buy someone shoes, they'll walk out of your self". Is it true?
16. Lastly, man, I want this one to be REALLY GOOD, I realized I tend to be attracted to guys who are are either musically inclined and end up being athletic, or are athletic and end up being musically inclined too. The music a guy listens to can either make or break him to me. If I'm serious about a guy, the music he listens to has to be good, one way or another. I'm open minded, so if I don't like the music he listens to, then it must mean it's REALLY BAD, haha.
Soooooo, I taggg:
1. Gabe, because you probably won't read this post until a week later -___- and then probably not even reply with your own little 16.
2. Samantha, because probably WILL read this and reply. Btw, I like reading your blog and looking at your pictures :)
3. Wifey Kamz, because I miss talking to you.
4. Karl Orotea, because I'm curious to see what you would write.. or if you will write. o_-
5. Amy Moore, my best buddy stand partner!
6. Jevin Almazan, my other best buddy stand partner, ish.. HAHA.
7. Jon Seligman, because I miss riding the bus with you. The bus stop is so far away now.. -__-
8. Jason Tsunoda, because I'm tired of sushi :(
9. Kuya Ryan, because I feel bad for flaking on you on Thursday morning.
10. Megan Foronda, because I love your voice.
11. Myckee Martinez, because we still need to kick it..
12. Kristine Torres, because I will ALWAYS have your back.
13. Kenneth Florendo, although you don't even go on facebook that often..
14. Nina David, because I miss you boo, boo. :( :( :( :( :(
15. Jannica Pascua, because it was fun at your house on Thanksgiving, haha
16. And Dani, because we still gotta kick it the next time I go to the bay.
I made onigiri with tuna for 1-5 pullouts on Friday! :)
Finally letting go of these. '04 Bred II's sz 6y. Interested? Ask me for more pictures.
Some people tell me you're great, but some people tell me you're not all that great. I'm pretty sure you've only been showing me your "great" side, but I'm pretty sure I've been showing you my good side.. maybe a little ugly. I don't know if I want things to get serious. Nope, I don't. Haha. Today was fun though. I really enjoyed your company after Vespers during the band practice. It was fun today during drill too. I just hope you're not as fake as people are portraying you to me.
You confuse me, and it's hurting me. When I'm with friends at church, they wonder about me. Like Big C.. he gets confused about me as a friend because, you know, usually I'm super upbeat and optimistic. But sometimes I have my low points where I look terrible. Throbbing headaches suck.. I'm advised to let you go. But I'm too attached to let go. Maybe I should detach myself? I want more signs. I need more signs.
I got one.
Okay, go.
I'll never buy you a pair of shoes.
Oh okay..
Wanna know why?
Why?
Because I'm afraid you'll walk out of my life.
Aw, wifey. I'll do this when I get bored at work or something! :) I thought you were going to keep your II's?
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