It Ain't Nothin' But A Thang

For one thing, I know I told you all of that last night was my honesty. But the thing that bothers me is the fact that I don't know what the truth is, and with everyone telling me different things at once confuses the crap out of me. I'm not ready to vent out all of my feelings because they're starting to change a lot because of the fact that I'm hearing different things. It kinda sucks, but, if it's God's will, it'll make me stronger.

It hurts me to know that I'm hurting you too. I understand there are things that shouldn't matter anymore, but they do. I'm gonna reminisce a little. I remember last Black Friday when you called me so early in the morning, and I talked to you so you weren't alone. It was the day you picked up your Skate Mental's, went into a Macy's dressing room, tried them on, and took pictures all while you were talking on the phone to me. I don't know why this is significant, but this is what I remember.

Anyway. Last night at the Pathfinder's Thanksgiving Dinner was hella fun. Everyone getting there semi-late, and all cute and "suited up". I ended up wearing a "form fitting" black dress from Forever 21, a cropped purple cardigan, and cute black open-toed pumps from H&M. When we got there, it was sort of awkward because it felt like we were there early. When the program started, I ended up sitting on the left of Aijalon, the right of Sylvione, across from Ian and Ken, and diagonal from EJ. Then when we got our food, I switched seats with Ken because I was sharing pie with Ian, haha. It was so the tie. And VPL doesn't phase me. After the program finished, when we were finished cleaning up, first, Kayla and Kirk started taking pictures, then Uncle Eric called Ian and I. He was all, "Deaj, Deaj! Take a picture with me!" while holding Ian's arm on the right, and put me on the left of him. Then him and I took pictures. My pose was hella awkward. Someone should have told me to turn inward more! Oh well. Then, there was a huge couple picture with Kirk, Jonah, Ian, Ryan, Sylvione, Me, Jennifer, and Kayla. Afterwards, everyone got in on the picture, and there was a huge youth picture. I don't really know what happened to them, but whatever. After, the youth ended up kicking it in the fellowship hall for a while because of all the last minute practices happening.

I finally got home around 10pmish, but when I got home, I had to slice up vegetables to soup to bring to the potluck this morning. I got to bed around 12am. This morning I woke up at 4:45am, left my house late, and got to the service late at 5:50amish. Oh well. Haha. Better late than never. After the service ended at 7:45amish, we all went to the fellowship hall for breakfast. The line was crazy long. Then, we all split, but met back up at Terra Nova park for football. When football was over, I left with Boyet, Aron, Jannica, and Cammy. We went to Von's to buy batteries, then drove over to Jannica's house. We played some Mario game on Wii, then watched some asian movie, ahaha! When they started to serve food, my dad picked my sister and I up, and then we left. When I got home, I hella napped, and now I'm awake, waiting to go out for dinner. I'm getting hungry. :(

Here's my one and only photo contribution. My H&M heels. :)


Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

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I miss that comfort of someone to cuddle with. And the comfort of someone to trust.