Even if it leads no where

Ouch. I anticipated it, but it still hurts. I don't know why, because I already knew, but it's not what I wanted to know. I like you, nonetheless. I just hope you're different, and you really do mean what you said.

So, I'm sitting here waiting to leave for Vespers.

Wednesday I went to church for Bible study, but ended up staying for small groups. Nothing epic. Saw Sylvione! Girl, your top is so cute. Hahaha. Thursday, second period = NO. Oh geez, I thought I was gonna get a referral. The substitute makes me just wanna walk out of the class and get a truancy. -____- After school, I came home and hella cleaned so I could go out to Coronado with small groups. When the time came, Uncle Delbert swooped Kayla and I up. We got to the beach and just hung out until the rest of small groups came. Sylvione, I had never been happier to see you! Baked sour cream and onion chips, sand underneath my toenails, and hurting my ankles after jumping off of the swing. Geez! Haha. When we left the beach, we drove over to the movie theatres and saw New In Town starring Renee Zellweger. I fell asleep and saw only bits and parts of it. The parts I was awake for made me even more upset and depressed than I already was. When the movie finished, we all left, and went home.

Now. I'm here. Better? I'm not so sure. Still kind of hurt. More confused than hurt. But still hurt.
Updated Rhona this morning. Wrote Denise an update during seventh period.

Spring break starts in a week. Not too excited. Time to start working out again? If not, then I'll be fasting. Tour starts the week after spring break. I'm not at all excited. The music is NOT ready, and with all of the new rules and restrictions, what's the point of going on tour. Ugh. And why would you want another purple or teal tshirt!?

I miss you too, Charlene.